Saturday, March 24, 2012

Gone fishing

Mar 21 2012

Went fishing again today and I got a text teling me one of my residents (the one that has been in and out of the hospital the past few weeks) was being taken off of life support. About 3 hours later i get told that he had passed away. Its sad that alot of people with developmental disabilities really have no one, he had been in the system for most of his life and his family never had anything to do with him after putting him in a sanaterium at a young age. It really is sad to think how it must be to die alone, even if you are in a comatose state and non responsive when a person in in the room with you.. Do you still hear it? Do you still feel alone? Are you scared considering that you may be afraid to be alone? The resident I refer to was pschizofrenic and heard voices on a regular basis that he would talk to or yell at... Did you know that most people with that disorder hear either a woman whispering or a man with a deep voice yelling at them... I'm guessing he heard the woman, always reffered to it as honey or b*tch... then again having a disorder like this could also be some form of possession couldn't it? I saw some strange things with this guy. Enough that made me wonder, including not being able to walk and move one moment and then beating the crap outtaa me and walking around the next moment. I know some people don't believe demons exist, even Christians don't believe in them anymore, but yet they will tell you that the bible and everything in it is real. My question is how can you believe in one and not the other..

While we were fishing today I was contacted by an old very good friend who stopped by and we fished for several hours, its good to still have friends that want to hang out. We remenissed about old times and some of the very stupid things we did in our younger days.

OK well im gonna leave this post ti be pondered for the moment and will post more later...


Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Rather ill over the last few days

Mar 19 2012
Its been a different time this weekend, I became sick and had horrible diarea and felt like vomiting the entire time. I also had problems sleeping between the horrible visions that kept me awake during times of fever flashes of both hot and cold. Apparently the dog was having issues as well and I kept boucing him around the bed every time he would just find a comfortable spot I was launching him back up and into the air to find another comfortable spot.

This is day three of this sickness, both the nausia and diarea have subsided but my lungs still feel sorta full... that is how it all started was with a cough... apparently 2 of my residents are also sick with what ever this horrid bug is.

Tomorrow is laundry day and we plan on washing the heaving items and this is the time I hope to upload this entry, we try to the heavy items such as the blue jeans at a laundrymat simply because they are such a problem to wash by hand. After the items are washed and dried I will be packing most of mine away because warm season is back and will not be needing so many long pants or long warm comfy shirts..

Ahh fishing, Saturday we went fishing at the wall and caught 5 nice sized brown catfish, I caught 4 and Sandi caught a really nice size one as well.. and yeah still love her even though she laughed at me when I lost my footing and slid into the lake...  :-P
Well this looks like it is all for today..

Thanks for reading,