Tuesday, July 09, 2013

7/9/13 Thoughts

Well here I am again pondering things, some things on life... firstly there's the book that I started and just havnt taken time to do more... I've got one chapter written I think but I'm sure it needs more. The entirety of the project was from seeing all these idiots out there telling people to do things to rely on for emergencies that is gonna get them hurt or killed. Its scary and sad at the same time...
Then there's the other book, my biography of the craziness of things that is my life... well some of that you get to read here for free, so enjoy it while you can.. haha!

  This whole deal that I was asked to write up for this prayer meeting deal at the church has brought out a lot of thoughts and deamons back to my life to confront, its pretty scary to see all the doors I had opened in the past, I am just hoping I don't scare off these two pastors and end up getting shunned from yet another church.. I have a really really dark past and I've seen and habe done things that most humans can say they have neither seen or did in 10 lifetimes. It is only through God's grace that I am still alive, even though I have no clue as to why I am still allowed to be alive.. To bring some one to Christ I suppose, but who knows but Him!

I've grown tired of facebook, its boring and is always the same drama here drama there bs that has become tireing.. perhaps I will delete that account as well.. actually the only reason I keep saying I leave it up is for my kids, but at least one of them also posts on google+ as well..

I'm still debating on paying a downpayment on some property somewhere too... but won't be around here.. yeah I've lived my whole life here... I know all the fishing and hunting spots... but I think I'm sick of the nothing to do around here of all of southern illinois... its pathetic, you look up kid friendly things to do here and all it comes up with is malls and movie theaters.. totally pathetic... ok I guess that's a rant and I'm gonna leave on that note

Monday, July 08, 2013

7/8/13 Goodbye Buck Creek

After 6 years of being the techie at http://buckcreeksurvival.com I have decided to leave... it became too much of a massive click of people and was being told that the owners had told several people to stay away from me... I have no clue as to why but it has been weighing on my mind for several weeks about it... frankly I was pretty mad and steamed at first, but later I just wanted to be done with them. Tonight I have made me some freedom.. I poured what felt like my lifeblood and soul into that place to get treated like dirt.. the last year or two no one has replied to my posts or anything so its for the better I think... well off to bed.. the heat of the kitchen tomorrow is gonna be a pain I think and need to shower before work..
God Bless..