Monday, June 02, 2014

Things just poking me in the eye today

I'm not posting a link to this entry to Facebook, but if you stumble upon it then perhaps you feel the urge to reach out and post a comment or two to me to let me know you read it... a while back I was told that I make my blog too personal and that I put too much out there... I've been told this on more than one occasion actually... I'm not perfect. I don't claim to be. But at times I hear the voice of doubt and today I hear it echoing resounding like a large church bell in my head... I know its not God placing those words there... but it is words of doubt and are in fact starting to dive me insane... why I havnt plead to God to make it stop I don't know.. perhaps its because I feel as if I am unworthy of His help.... but then again that shows just how much ground I'm losing in letting satan win this battle.... I'm going to go pray before I go to work, below is just something I wrote this morning to get it off my mind.


I feel often times that I am tested every day, more often than not I fail... it saddens me that I cannot meet a higher criteria by Jesus' standard. I fall short of God every time. Is this his expectation of me? Knowing that I always fall short? It makes me ashamed of who I am and to even call myself a christian at times. ....