How Much Are You Worth

How much are you worth? How much do you sell yourself out for?

I look down and ask myself how much am I worth on a regular basis.. right now, the average adult in southern Illinois is worth about $8.25 per hour.. thats minimum wage. some factory workers get paid between $14-16 per hour and an average wal mart employee makes $10 per hour.

Now this being said full time used to be considered 40 hours per week but ever since Obama and his "infinite Wisdom" created the medical reformation act, full time has now become 30 hours per week, which means not only do you get forced to buy insurance at an over priced rate but you also now earn a lot less money than you used to make. so that person that was originally making $330 per week is now making $247.50, that is $82.50 in lost wages per week or $4290 a year that has been lost.

now knowing this, a single person with one income makes about $990 before taxes and fica (social security which supposedly will run out before I get it, which is another story in itself) which ends up as being $721.77based on http://www.payrollforamerica.com/calculators/Illinois-payroll-calculator.php .
Now shall we add in costs of living? an average apartment in my town runs anywhere from about $400-$500 per month utilities from what I hear are similar as follows: average water starts at about $40-$60, electric about $175-$250, then there is food so look what has already been spent so far with even the cheapest 400+40+175=615 so lets hope you don't have a car payment or paying on anything else cause we still haven't included the cost of gas (locally $2.39 / gal when I wrote this), food, phone, consumables such as personal hygiene products, or anything like TV or Internet either oh and don't forget that insurance that is mandated by Obama. Right now as we are calculating you are seeing that this person working full time and is single only has $106.77 left from paying these bills.

now has any money been put back and saved at this point? probably not. By all rights we should be only paying out and living on 50% of our earnings or less, but as it turns out, the majority are living on about 75% or more.

So I ask you again, how much are you worth? you see this was just me trying to show you what average people around me are dealing with, how they struggle and how we as a community of people struggle daily to just exist. I myself am sick of just existing. I want to make more than that  little amount I quoted above, I am sick of being the man on the low end of the totem pole that every one craps on, on a regular basis. I know for a fact that I am not the only one that feels this way. But I tell you what in December of last year I met some people that gave me a small glimmer of hope, a star to steer by that I am trying to make work. Yes, it is hard work. Yes, you have to spend money to make money... But you know what? I see it working with so many people. I have met people over the last several months who have shown me so much that can come of this, and it is a way to escape from this living that isn't even a living. One man named Orrin Woodward call it the Matrix.. Its not hard to believe either because it does resemble it a lot.

So once more. HOW MUCH ARE YOU WORTH???
I know I am worth more than that $106 that was left over from those bills listed above, and so are you!

If you are interested to find out more information about what I am talking about, please feel free to contact me at 618.241.0328 or you can message me via hang outs or Google plus of even here by leaving a comment. I will get back with you I promises.

Write you again soon
~B

7/9/13 Thoughts

Well here I am again pondering things, some things on life... firstly there's the book that I started and just havnt taken time to do more... I've got one chapter written I think but I'm sure it needs more. The entirety of the project was from seeing all these idiots out there telling people to do things to rely on for emergencies that is gonna get them hurt or killed. Its scary and sad at the same time...
Then there's the other book, my biography of the craziness of things that is my life... well some of that you get to read here for free, so enjoy it while you can.. haha!

  This whole deal that I was asked to write up for this prayer meeting deal at the church has brought out a lot of thoughts and deamons back to my life to confront, its pretty scary to see all the doors I had opened in the past, I am just hoping I don't scare off these two pastors and end up getting shunned from yet another church.. I have a really really dark past and I've seen and habe done things that most humans can say they have neither seen or did in 10 lifetimes. It is only through God's grace that I am still alive, even though I have no clue as to why I am still allowed to be alive.. To bring some one to Christ I suppose, but who knows but Him!

I've grown tired of facebook, its boring and is always the same drama here drama there bs that has become tireing.. perhaps I will delete that account as well.. actually the only reason I keep saying I leave it up is for my kids, but at least one of them also posts on google+ as well..

I'm still debating on paying a downpayment on some property somewhere too... but won't be around here.. yeah I've lived my whole life here... I know all the fishing and hunting spots... but I think I'm sick of the nothing to do around here of all of southern illinois... its pathetic, you look up kid friendly things to do here and all it comes up with is malls and movie theaters.. totally pathetic... ok I guess that's a rant and I'm gonna leave on that note
L8rz
~W

Craziness 8-27-12

Oh the craziness that family will put you through at times. I have this cousin that his newest "fun" thing to do when he is bored is to put me down or make seem mad or even make me seem crazy to others... last year he made it his goal in life to constantly put me down and make me look stupid to others, this being said, according to him "your bow will never shoot and you will never get it up to the legal limits of 40 lbs draw weight, and even if you do, it will break the first time you shoot it because you don't know the first thing about making a bow."  Really? Well as it seems my bow shoots at 46 lbs and has fired numerous times... this one I believe was out of jealousy but I never can tell..

The next time we were dealing with the yard flooding with sewer water from the sewer in the street and I had picked up several leeches and posted the pictures on Facebook to which my cousin in his infinate wisdom of nature has to try and make me out to be stupid states... " you don't know what you're talking about that is not a leech but is a common slug" and then tries to get me to argue the point, when I post pictures of a slug he says "there are many types of slugs and that's just a different kind than the one you posted before" I finally told him to come over and I would put it on him and let him see first hand that it is not a slug but a leech, to which he declined to do...

This time around he has on 2 occasions last week and again twice tonight attempted to both make me look crazy and then look like a prejudice something rather... before it was about a post about seeing a drone fly over which has been documented to which he poked fun and made fun then quickly changed the subject to something else.. this time he flat out called me a "white suppremesist" and "leader of the KKK" over an article I posted about an egg shortage.... needless to say I deleted him from Facebook but that still didn't stop him, he started emailing me and private messeging me telling me that I'm crazy and that I need to get professional help, and accusing me of doing things to him.... he told me I was "paranoid and delusional" then also told me I was a "wanna be army type that didn't know shit and can only survive off others because when the going gets tough, you quit." Really? Wow! I think this is funny coming from a guy that got kicked outta the marines during boot camp "because I wouldn't let them controlled me" really? Oh and refuses to work a regular job cause he "owes 10+ years on back taxes for not filing" yet he worked as a cook at Denny's for a month and quit cause he "couldn't take the staff who all had bipolar disorders" .... hmmm and calls me complaining that he and his dad got into it and was kicked out of the house cause his dad was moving back into it.... have I mentioned that my cousin is a 55 yr old "man"....

Sigh, sorry about ranging tonight after hot even posting in nearly a month but I had to get it out

~W

Empty

I am empty, I am nothing in the nothingness. I am filled with both the confusion and termoil of life at this time. I am struck between life and such but cannot help the way I am. I feel that there is nothing but chaos arround me and that all rules have been broken creating anarchy here in my supposed comfort zone called home. I am no longer the king of my castle, instead it was reliqished to a 14 year old daughter of which does everything to cause termoil in my life. I feel as if my existance is nothing but a bother to those who at one time was close to me but in my steadfast to be defending my domain has did nothing but cause myself grief in such a way that no man deserves. I have done nothing but provide and yet I, am the evil one, I provide what I have been able to but when it comes to shove all else is spent on the one... even the younger two do not siblings are left out. It bothers me so... but yet I am the one to be blamed at every time. I am not the one that has done this, it is she that supossedly does no wrong.

Yes I know I am feeling sorry for myself at this time but seriously Im burned out... as well as stressed out due to the fact of all my work ends up to get the oldest daughter many thangs and the other two kids are always looking at me for it when it is thier mother doing such.. its no wonder that the kids and myself (oldest daughter not included) are depressed.. If I didnt know better I would think it was time to move on.