Needed view points

Last night we went to one of our monthly seminars and heard needed viewpoints that we was needing to hear, for it was the same issues that we are dealing with in a sorts.
Basically both Sandi and I have been struggling with voices in our heads. I didn't know what hers was saying but I do know what mine always says all the time.. "Failure", "idiot", "worthless piece of crap", "you will never amount to anything", "what, you expected anyone to love you?" "Freaking retard", " stupid reject".
These are the things I've been told most my life and have heard it so much that I believed them so when I feel like I have failed, that negative self talk is what I do.. At least I no longer physically take it out on myself like I used to, no do I try to cop out and try to commit suicide... So many times did I try and take my life because in my head no one cared.

Last night we both without knowing almost didn't go, but we were glad we did. Frank and Courtney Cox were speakers. And soo much was said from them that we both could associate with, both their stories of struggle I could associate with and have been almost ready to give up with our business.  I have been hurting and struggling all my life with a lot of baggage that I have, which has cone back to taunt me as of late, and is partially why I have quit writing again too. My head hasn't been on strait and was knocked down, but this time it wasn't just me, I was also dragging down everyone around me. I felt like I was on the Titanic and had no life raft. But after last night, I feel like I can get back up and go another 10 rounds. See I spotted Courtney outside the meeting room as we was waiting for the ticket holders meeting so I asked Sandi if she wanted to go and meet her while there wasn't people crowding her. She spotted us even though she was talking to some one else she looked up and started talking to Sandi, but she locked eyes with me as if she could see deep down inside me and said "Don't give up, we could have and then we wouldn't be able to be here, the business works, don't give up just don't give up.. It takes a while some times and people will say you're crazy but what ever you do, don't give up".. Later on I actually got to go up and talk to Frank Cox, I was nervous and couldn't say anything, i was teary eyed knowing we had some similar experiences and what did i muster up to say.... " Awesome!" as i reached out to shake his had... Boy dis i feel stupid.. That one moment I could have gleaned a personal nugget of information and I dropped the ball... Guess what I had to listen for the 2 hour ride home... Yup the negative self talk of how stupid I was for not saying more.. But i thing that he knew i was choked up, so he didn't say anything either other than the two words "thank you".

Looks like its almost time to clock into my 9-5
Write to you later,
~B

Have you a dream?

90% of people in the United States give up on their dreams by the time they are 28 years old.
It is something we are taught that if you work hard and long hours that we can have all we want and and that you need to finance your vacations and keep up with the neighbors and their toys.

Did you know that you don't have to keep up with the neighbors and you don't have to finance your vacations?

We as a society have forgotten how to dream, how to really dream. I too had forgotten what it was like to dream. In the last few months I have begun to dream again. This is because of some people I have recently met in December. I have now learned that there are ways to win your dreams and accomplish them.

1.) Be willing to bet on yourself.
2.) Lead your life instead of letting your life lead you.
3.) Love what you do and do what you love. (This one I have always heard)
4.) Don't compare yourself or your dreams to someone elses.
5.) Believe in your vision of the future even when no one else does.

Above all else, Don't let anyone make you believe it is not possible to accomplish your dreams.

Lies, Lies and more Lies

There are many excuses that we ot someone else tells us that crushes and kills our dreams, here are just a couple of them and the truth that can defeat them.

The first lie that crushes dreams is that "dreams don't come true for ordinary people.."

The truth is, you are not ordinary so of course your dream can come true.

The second lie most often told to crush dreams is that if your dream isn't big, that it isn't worth going after.

The truth is that your dream doesn't have to be big, it just has to be bigger than you. Meaning that it has to be big enough for you to just get out of your comfort zone and strive for more.

The third biggest lie told to crush your dreams is that now is not the time to follow your dreams.

The truth is that if you don't chase those dreams now, then you may never chase them and not make them come true.
In my opinion this is the one that crushes your dreams the worst because it is the one that makes you forget them altogether.

I had a dream at one time that I was going to travel and see the home of my ancestors in Scotland and Ireland. Did I do it? Not yet, but I plan to in the near future.

Until next time, God bless you.
~Brad